Here you will find a laundry list of symptoms straight from the mayo clinic webpage. Within each I will have marked those I dealt with by an asterisk.
“Although depression may occur only once during your life, people typically have multiple episodes. During these episodes, symptoms occur most of the day, nearly every day and may include:
Feelings of sadness*, tearfulness*, emptiness* or hopelessness
Angry outbursts, irritability or frustration*, even over small matters
Loss of interest* or pleasure in most or all normal activities*, such as sex, hobbies or sports
Sleep disturbances, including insomnia* or sleeping too much*
Tiredness and lack of energy*, so even small tasks take extra effort*
Reduced appetite* and weight loss* or increased cravings for food and weight gain
Anxiety*, agitation or restlessness
Slowed thinking*, speaking* or body movements*
Feelings of worthlessness* or guilt*, fixating on past failures or self-blame
Trouble thinking*, concentrating*, making decisions* and remembering things*
Frequent or recurrent thoughts of death*, suicidal thoughts*, suicide attempts or suicide
Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches
For many people with depression, symptoms usually are severe enough to cause noticeable problems in day-to-day activities, such as work, school, social activities or relationships with others. Some people may feel generally miserable or unhappy without really knowing why.”
I remember staring into nothingness for an eternity. Truly it was staring, for I did not notice anything particularly, I just let time pass. Sometimes it was daylight, other times it was not. None of it meant anything to me. Later I was obsessively guilt-ridden for allowing so much time to be wasted like that. Now, however, I understand that as a process that my body and my mind had to go through in order to work itself back to wellness. I will tell that story too, but I have another piece written that I think should be read first to help understand how I came to the conclusion for my own treatment. It was a very long process and took an entire village, but it was how I needed to heal.